March 29, 2008
February 16, 2008
Caught in the everyday hussle…
So I havent’ had much time to explore the Bible and really dive into it cuz I didn’t study or read for my classes - literally for almost 2 weeks now - and now I’m payin for it. But I haven’t forgotten You.
Anyways, I was a bit exhausted this morning and I’m lying down listenin to some music and its on random like always and John Legend comes on. It was Show Me and just lying there it just reminded me that there’s so much we don’t know - kinda hit me where it counts. I thought I’d post a video of the song so if anybody else comes across my blog maybe the song will touch them like it does me. Listen to it if you haven’t heard it especially.
February 14, 2008
post by metaspyder
This won’t be an attack. Here’s his/her post:
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So the question is,
“What characteristics would define ‘the worst man’?”
And, if you can define this terrible, terrible man,
“Why would God create an object (the ‘worst man’) just to loathe it?”
Human artists come to love their ‘errors’, regarding them instead as additional strokes in a painting, or chips from a chisel. Where an error serves no purpose, it is absolutely removed. If we, the imperfect, have learned this, then why would a perfect God not take similar steps?
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The only problem is that men are forever in constant creation with their arts directly, while you can say that God created mankind, that he did not physically create me or you, but only the very first beings.
This said, it must only be the result of our human nature that we somehow fell from the pure and innocent state we were in when we were all created. Which would hold up much of the Bible, including that we are responsible for people being exposed to ills that might become obstacles in the way of finding God.
Thsi is all very heavy - but it gives me a work out ![]()
A question for the wise
Christians take the Bible for Truth. They say “Don’t question. it is what it is - true.” For the longest time I hated this in them. I hated to be associated with them or to be seen with them. Now I think they might actually be on to something…
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I was reading Wayne Grudem’s “Systematic Theology: An Intro the Biblical Doctrine” and theres a part in the chapter on the authority that comes from scripture and why the Word is Truth. It goes on to say the obvious. These words cannot be “proven to be God’s words.” This is a one-liner that so many people in the world use to refute the possibility of Christianity. They say without proof its just a theory. But this is true of everything we hold and assume to be true in our world and everything surrounding us. We have theories and thoughts and assumptions. Evolution, Marxism, Global Warming. now I don’t necessarily believe that global warming is a myth, or that marxism is all wrong, but these have no real proof. They have theories which are quite possibly nothing but stated relationships of contingency and planned, organized coincidence. Some may be fitting ideas into theories, distorting truth. These theories could be right but I am just using them as possible examples. The real mistakes we are making in this area are more likely dramatically more important. Point being - we fit many things into our cookie-cutter theories and our rigid rational forms.
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But I digress. The next, more important item Grudem pulls up is that by trying to prove God through rational and reason we subordinate God’s words to a higher authority. Now this is where I really got pissed. I thought, “If God gave us all rational thought and good reason why wouldnt he want us to use it??” The more I thought and chewed on it I came to the conclusion that he DOES want us to use it. But this does NOT refute Grudems argument as you’ll see.
If you’ve read Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance you’ll know who Pirsig is. He was a genius and his capacity for rational thought and philosophy was unparalleled. Theres one part in the book where he’s working out this philosophy through rational and he comes to the conclusion that his old way of doing things isn’t working now. He can’t go back, and going forward does him no good. He finally realizes that instead of doing what is rational, by going forward like he usually does, he must transgress sideways (Mind you this is all a big metaphor in his philosophy).
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When I read the Grudem statement above I admit I was very angry at first. but then it all came together. Maybe we ARE supposed to use our rational to figure things out. But maybe, sometimes, we must use our rational to decide that rational thought and pure reason cannot get us where we want to go, so we must rationally lay down our reason and choose something that might seem irrational, like Pirsig. But, in truth, it is at heart very rational. And this would fit into Grudem’s theory that we cannot subdue God’s words to another authority, placing Him at a lower position.
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This leaves me to find out how I can see that the Bible is the Word of God. I find that there is only one way: to get to know the word, and that is where I am confronted by the Holy Spirit. If the Word is God then he will speak to me according to however the Bible says. I can test and challenge this and someday Truth will be revealed to me. I have not found that out yet though.
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I must say though that now I am inclined to believe that the God of the Bible is the only one who stands a chance in my mind. He is personal, forgiving, and alive not like so many other “gods.” I will finish this with a favorite quote of mine from War and Peace:
“If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed.”
My first steps…
I know there is God.
Sometimes I can’t put it into words how I know this. A simple sunset, the ocean, or a cool frost coming over the mountains remind me just how beautiful our world is, and how little I have seen. This world did not happen by chance, spontaneous combustion, or any other sporadic measure. The way our bodies work, how ocean waves careen over rocks so gracefully, and the stars at night all let me know that everything, even the littlest, maybe largely unnoticed, thing has been carefully crafted. I saw the sun rising this morning as I was cooking breakfast and I stood there in awe, just happy to be feeling the warmth from its rays.
And then I am awoken by that fate which is everyman’s fate. We are all dying. One day closer to death I am now, and tomorrow will be another. I am not afraid of death. I always figured that when it was my time it was my time. But lately I have wondered what comes after. I soon came to the conclusion that this life could not be all we have, for whoever created this world and made us into beings full of life, would not give us something just to take it away. Our souls, as Plato conceived in the Republic, are indestructible. We are immortal. Then this was too simple; If we are immortal we can do whatever we want right? No that couldnt be it. God would want us to seek him. some people say this is done by reading the Bible, other by doing good, and some even by being baptized. At first I thought that doing good could be the answer. But then bad men could do good deeds. Then I came to the thought that if our heart is pure we could get in. But you can be a good man with no regard for God at all. Would God allow someone who didnt believe he existed to come into his kingdom? I think not.
So I’m soon led to believe we must all do something, not physical, to be saved - to live eternally in happiness with God. (The reason I believe in two different places for the afterlife is I couldnt believe that God would allow the man who denied the existence of his creator all his life to sit at his right hand side.)
And that is how I get to nearly believing in Christ. I do believe in him and yet I have doubt. Best way to put it is: I believe in Jesus as God’s son, but I have many problems with this Christian theology in general. So, on the verge of saying alltogether that I believe God is savior without being totally honest I find myself challenging these core beliefs, in hope that they will go through the fire and be refined like gold, and the truth revealed to me. This is my story in a nutshell - there is so much more, so much that has influenced me, so many questions I have that I cannot possibly write them all out or even know what all my thoughts are. But this is the gist of the big ones that I do know. This is my story and the beginning of my search for Truth.